”我的心里..."

有一段时间，没有在这角落记载藏在内心深处的话，希望自己有一点私隐。然而一个人的时候还是会有点寂寞孤单，透过文字好让自己感觉好一些。并不擅长写作，但每每有些感觉的时候，十指面对键盘是还是会游走一下，留下一些往后可以让自己回头一望的足迹。

最近因为一些工作的事情，让自己感觉到有一点压力。在目前的工作环境，每个人都很会打太极，修道较浅的我很常变成乾坤大挪移的对象，还说是学习的好机会。我认同是学习的好机会，但前几个月的体会，让我心里很不安。在这里，每个人只为了自己，为了自己，把责任推卸给别人。问题是有时候希望这些人动用那大头小脑想想，今天你在其位，所以你谋其政。结果你把责任推卸给不在其位的人，又不授权给他，请问在这情况下，该怎么把事情办好？？？

糟了，不自主的激动起来。冷静...这样的环境，让我体会到一些现实的社会观，很消极很无奈。哈哈，再怎么在意，环境还是不变，唯有自己学会看开和放下，在这不公平的局势生存。

我的心啊，委屈你了！有一些情绪和感想，我还是把它们藏在你的深处。“你存在，我深深的脑海里，我的梦里，我的心里..."

2012开斋节旧地重游

事隔多月，终于在开斋节假期时间回到了家乡，去到熟悉的地方钓鱼。因为工作的忙碌，一直压抑的钓瘾得到适当的解脱，当然包括工作的压力。17.08.2012傍晚，开了五小时的车回到了家乡，路途当中可说是紧张到脚发抖，怪自己没有加满油缸，在最后几十公里的路途油缸已经亮起了红灯。还好关了冷气，平安抵达家乡市区的加油站，真的是感谢主！也还好车子刚好维修好，换了机油和变速器油，车子跑顺很多，耗油量也比较低。

休息了两天，星期一我和外地回来的三哥，还有刚好在家乡的团叔叔一起出发去老地方钓鱼。钓饵是活虾，前天晚上已经打电话给表哥预定了，省了很多时间。开始下钓，很冷清，没有什么动静，可能潮水还在退的关系。鱼讯在开始涨潮的时候变得很积极，上钓的都是红漕，因为我还在准备钓具的说，开头彩被三哥拿去了！团叔叔也不错，唯独我准备好了钓具，鱼讯已经冷淡了，我只钓到两只小的。

钓鱼有时除了技术，运气可说是少不了的！运气终于来到我左右，先钓上一只半公斤的石斑，让我享受一下。正当我为另一支鱼竿挂饵的时候，鱼竿很用力的抖了一下，跑去查看的时候钓饵已经被偷去了。赶紧钩上活虾，再往那里下钓，才要为另一支竿挂饵已经有动静了！大力扬竿之下，那种沉重的拉力让我体会好爽的快感啊！小心的卷起钓线，三哥在一旁说是金目鲈，我感觉到的拉力不是金目鲈所为。当鱼被拉到水面的时候，答案揭晓，是石斑！好爽快啊！Owner的小鱼钩钩在石斑的嘴角，避免了尼龙子线被磨损。三哥来得及把上鱼的镜头录下，真的太好了！

 让我爽几天的石斑，哈哈！

接下来下了蛮大的雨，我检查插在后面的两支钓竿。第二支竿在我开始卷线的时候传来了不错强的拉力，Yes! 拉到水面，是好家伙红漕，真的是开心，至少也分一只比较有拉力的给我爽一下！哈哈。 

 检查鱼竿时上钓的红漕。

三个人钓到十多尾的红漕和两只石斑，还有其他的鱼类。 今天的两个可惜，
第一：下雨的时候，团叔叔经历很强的拉力，从他钓竿的弯度，鱼的分量还蛮粗的。我刚要过去帮叔叔松开一些卷轴拖动器的时候，钓线一松，鱼儿脱钩逃之夭夭了！我心想大概是鱼钩断了。果然不出所料，是鱼钩断了！原来叔叔用的这个品牌我之前也有用过，而且我自己也经历了被鱼儿拉断钩的经历。
第二：我的一支鱼竿，因为卡钓，被拉上来鱼钩直了。我用钳弄回原状，继续下钓。结果就是因为一时的贪方便而不换钩让我错失了上钓鱼的机会。因为在后面检查另一支钓竿，在前面的叔叔喊我说有鱼吃钓，而且钓竿差点就被拉进水了！还好我有放松卷轴拖动器，不然又多一支鱼竿被留在这里了！卷线检查，钓钩被拉直了，心里好难受！怪就怪自己贪方便吧！

整体来说这次钓游还不错，上鱼时间其实只是在大雨来临前，不过还是很感恩，让我有和三哥和团叔叔的聚集时光。

再来一张fish of the day. 

部分的收获。

 用手机稍微编辑的照片。

下一次钓游再接再厉！

Casting Snakehead and craving for Fresh Water Big Head prawn!

Date:13-14 April 2012

It has been few months from the last time i visit Miri, where last trip to Miri was om January 2012. In order to have times for some fishing activities at Miri with my uncle, i have to apply for annual leave. After settle my work, then is my show time. Since i don't have much time to fish because uncle was quite busy with his work, i really appreciate the fishing time. Really thanks uncle a lot for his precious time. On Friday evening, after uncle come back form his work, he took me to pond near to Lambir National park, the pond just situated near to the main road and easily been seem. While i try mu luck at the big pond that have lots of lotus, uncle make his move to the smaller pond not far a while. After so many cast been make, i felt a bit disappointed because not even a single bite. Took a look at uncle, he manage to land a beautiful size Haruan and he said he miss several strikes which maybe have scaled of more than 1kg if only it been landed. We walk back to the big pond, uncle try to have some cast there, while i still remain on the same place sending the lure into middle of lotus. Suddenly i noticed some movement between the lotus and my lure has been bite! what more, pull on my rod and YES!!! A nice Haruan manage to be landed after having a long session of casting. Maybe because of the time matter, the haruan become quite aggressive to take the bite. My observation maybe the dawn that cause Haruan aggressive the bite. On the same spot uncle have two strike but only one Haruan manage to be landed.  

Having enough fun at the pond, we make our move to another pond on the way back which is also near to road side. It only took few minutes for uncle to landed another Haruan where at the same time i also landed one but smaller in size. Around 6.45pm, we decided to go back. Result today, uncle got many strikes and manage to land four Haruan whereas i only have two strikes and both been landed. Personally felt that Haruan become less aggressive to take the lure when the weather is hot, because at the first big pond, the Haruan only take the lure when the weather has been cold down with less bright sunlight. But the key to success, have to work hard, send the lure to any possible place that hide Haruan because some of the Haruan will only take the lure after several cast has been make with different presentation of lure. Well, sure i will be back and look for Haruan and if possible Bujuk and Keradang. 

The first pond that full with lotus, Haruan aggressive 

to take the lure when the weather start to chill down.

The second small Haruan landed at the second pond.

Beside fishing, don't miss the beautiful natural painting. 

Happy with the Haruan Casting session, is time to move for Fresh Water Big Head Prawn. Another big THANK YOU to uncle because in order to have the prawning session, uncle only worked for half day and afternoon we heard to Sungai Niah. Reach Sungai Niah around 1pm, we rent a small boat with 6 horse power Yamaha engine and what do we waiting for??? Lets go! According to uncle, the water condition was not so good and judging by the appearance, should be heavy rain on the upstream which cause the water become cold and crude. Since we was here, we just hope that luck was with us today. Unlike usual, not much responses been received by me and uncle, but thank god that luck was on my side where i manage to landed a beautiful Big Head Prawn within short time. Then when move to another spot, i manage to landed another one which believe to have weight more than 400grams when i was trying to check the bait and the big one suddenly pull my rod.

With the two big fella, i was quite happy already. Luck was not with uncle today because he received two strong pull from the big fella but they win the game when uncle almost succeed to pull them out from water. At the last spot before we go back, i have received a strong pull from the casting rod that i use to cast Haruan yesterday. What a strong pull make by Big Head Prawn as it able to pull the lines out from my spool, i try to tighten a bit the spool but OH NO!!!! The big fella manage to escape!!! Imagine the feeling i have that time! How i wish to land it and took a nice photograph but what to do? I swear i will come back again and by that time, i hope the big fella can show up and fight with me again! Haha. Until the next trip, BYE. 

Caught by uncle last time, with weight of 460 grams. 

The two big fella landed by me, will be threeif i didn't miss 

the last one, which believe will be the biggest one!

Spotted a beautiful rainbow on the way back to jetty. 

Finger licking good Steam Big Head Prawn with eggs!

WALAO E! SO FRESH!

Nice fishing trip at Bintulu.

05-08/04/2012

Just another ordinary week with daily routine, while feeling bored at office, suddenly come to my mind that coming Friday will be a public holiday. As what i remember, Pak Ali, which i just get to know him few days ago do mention to me that he plan to go Bintulu for Mackerel fish hunting. Pak Ali's friends told him one of the friend manage to land 14 Mackerels which make me keep swallow my saliva. I have dreams for long time to hook up Mackerels.

Thursday morning i received a message from Pak Ali that he will heading to Bintulu on the night. what do i waiting for??? Settle things at office and heading home early, took some cash and went to Tackle shop to get a rod to match with my Daiwa Exceler 4000. Due to limited budget, i get myself Eupro Hammer ii Pe3-6 and some accessories. 7pm, Pak Ali reached my place and we start our journey to Bintulu, which will take us so many hours. We take turn to drive, and thank God for his blessing we manage to reach Bintulu safely around 4am. Pump some petrols, get some ice, then we head to the place. Due to low tide, have to wait for some times to get the boat on to the water. While waiting, i try my luck at the small river by casting using Rapala Husky Jerk. When i about to give up, i received a strong strike, which only last for one second, the 30lbs mono leader broken off without giving me any chances to fight back. Luckily my husky jerk emerged and i manage to save it. How i wish i can land the fish which i suspected to be a Barracuda, due to some scratches on the lure.

Enough talking with the casting, is time to hunt for Mackerel. Using 4 stroke 100hp engine, we head to area with 1++ meter to get some live baits, enough with the bullets, is show time then. Well, due to slow water current, Mackerel become less aggressive. i manage to get one strike but the Owner hook didn't hook up the fish for me, half of the live bait been stolen by mackerel. while waiting for Mackerel, we also do some bottom fishing, to get some fish for dinner tonight. With Abu Garcia Conolon Pe1-2 and sixstar one my hand, i manage to land a Blue Spotted Stingray scaled about 1 kg.
Lazy to take squid from the ice box, i took the half live bait that bite by Mackerel just now as bait, which brought me the fish of the day, a nice Cobia scaled about 3kg. Really enjoy fighting this Cobia that took me about 10 minutes to land it. Conclusion on the first day fishing trip, no mackerel been landed, but we will be back on the next day, so do keep up the good work!

 Blue Spotted Stingray 

 Cobia, become finger licking good Umai as our dinner! 

Our second day fishing trip begin with a small Mackerel fish landed by me, even though is small, but still i was happy because finally i get the target fish. Another two strike by friends but Mackerel win the show. Due to slow water current, i change my Mackerel set to bottom set which enable me to landed a beautiful fish, believe to be a Snapper fish,  Lutjanus apodus。Another strike manage to pull my 80lbs leader into coral and win by the fish. 

Such a beautiful fish, Gold-spotted Sweetlips fish.

Fish of the day 2. 

Happy with the catches. 

Conclusion for this fishing trip, we didn't go far to sea, only took us within one hour i think to reach the spot, yet we manage to do some trolling on the way. For sure i will return for bigger Mackerel and i wish to be back very soon!

一日钓鱼记

三月的第二个礼拜，原本相约两人乘船出去钓鱼，但后来多了两个人参与。 因为某些原因，原本动用十五马力的舷外发动机却变成了两百马力的舷外发动机。其实如果玩内港十五马力已经足够了，不但省油，而且小船在内港钓鱼比较舒服。不过也不管那么多了，心里想钓鱼，不必因为意见不合而搞得不愉快。

七点多抵达码头，把东西搬上VIP船之后就出发去第一个钓点。我用两支鱼竿，一支用Owner Cutting Point单钩等待比较够份量的家伙上钩，另一支用了四枚比较小的Maruto鱼钩。 第一个地方由我开幕，一只七八百克的海泥鳅上钩，接着就由战友上了一只接近一公斤的石斑。结下来就陆续的钓上三牙。当天的水有点混浊，不过还是可以看到不少钓友在钓鱼。

退潮的时候，船夫把船开往小河，要寻找钓饵。只见他们挑了一个很多树叶和烂泥巴的河床，用手在烂泥巴寻找目标钓饵，海蚯蚓（当地人叫Kompon）。只见他们把一团团类似树叶的东东放进桶里，三两下就找到了不少。

船夫在找着新鲜钓饵。

乘机下钓，战友得到一次低钓讯，不过还是给它溜了。

这树叶团就是海蚯蚓的护体。

稍微把树叶拿开，海蚯蚓用类似丝绸的物体缠绕自己。

第一次用海蚯蚓下钓, 被它的獠牙（Insect Mandible）咬到，感觉不错geli一下。

海蚯蚓（Cacing Laut）的真面目，一半被鱼儿当点心了！

尝试找一些海蚯蚓的资料，不过没有头绪，只知道有一种在沙滩沙地的海蚯蚓很长很长，钓虾很好用，一些地方一只买五块十块都有。话说刚刚找到的海蚯蚓三牙特别的喜欢，让我们有了不少次的Double hook up 发生，虽说是小鱼不过还是很开心一下。深处的三牙比较大只，下锅油煎不错好吃一下，当天的Double hook up都是三牙赏脸上演的，我呢就有一次小石斑双上。

在一个小河口上钓的小石斑。 

当天为我带来一些刺激的鱼，Ikan Jang是也！这是一公斤多的家伙看上我的鱿鱼饵，刚刚开始只是带来一点沉重的感觉，快到船了才来了几轮的冲刺，之后就被我鳅上船了！

为我带来一些刺激感的家伙。

有同事一起钓鱼感觉真好。话说过了几天回去家乡钓鱼，遭遇到两次断线断钩的经历，真的是摧心肝啊！怀疑是金目鲈和牛屎鲳的杰作，如果被请上来的话我个人觉得那份兴奋会维持一段时间。

含羞草

自己的察觉，含羞草。小时候，对含羞草有很大的好奇心，怎么它轻轻的被碰一下就会把叶子合起来呢？长满刺的它，每次看到它的时候都会避得远远的，可就还是很好奇的去碰一下它的叶子。其实它有着粉红色的花，早晨被露水蒙盖的时候是多么的漂亮，只要细心留意就会发现。

 不是很清澈。

有多少人像含羞草？为了保护自己，身上长满刺，被碰时把叶子收起来？但含羞草难免还是会寂寞，所以开了粉红色的花，希望一些细心的蜜蜂被吸引。

一片空白。

脑袋一片空白，手指在键盘上时不时按Delete，好多的感触，很想用言语表达出来，但不是这么简单。最近的我，总是和闹钟比赛，看看谁比较早起，结果爆冷，既然给我赢了！每每都会在闹钟响前的一小时内醒来，也就是大概五点多吧。这几天下雨的早上，醒来的我把闹钟关了继续赖床。
这一段期间，放工了就呆在房间，听着音乐，上着网，聊着天。 投入在歌声里，看着富有意义的歌词，很感动！

2012年二月4 & 5日钓虾记

今天的二月，没有连续的雨天，趁着二月六号的公共假期，三号傍晚搭巴士回家去咯！自从新年前和二哥去钓虾，我的钓虾瘾发作得不是开玩笑的！对老地方更是抱着很大的期待。家里的空气让我一觉到天亮，陪家人到市区买了东西吃过早餐感觉很好。 回到家，时间不等人，赶紧收拾家伙就出发去老地方过过瘾了。途中看到一只很大的幼虫，虽然觉得有点恶心，还是拿去当钓饵了！相信这么大的幼虫应该会变成甲虫。

 和我母子同大小的幼虫，拿来当鱼饵。

抵达目的地，很快的组装我的钓具，在我准备第三副钓具时，第一支竿传来消息，把钓竿握在手里，熟悉的后退拉扯，肯定是你了，我的美人虾！

 好的开始让我信心大增。

再接再厉，仔细地观察每一支钓竿，努力的检查钓饵为了更加的钓获。发现一支被我抛得很远的钓竿有点动静，很斯文的上下摆动。我心里大喜，知道有份量的家伙要跟我比一比干劲了！把竿一提，一股很沉重的拉力传来手心，因为钓竿很软，感觉就好像卡钓了！把钓竿提高，慢慢的卷起钓线，两只长长的蓝钳伸出水面，心跳加速了！胜利还不属于我，六磅的子线不能硬扯，把这大家伙拉到河边，小心的提起来，成功了！握着战利品拍照的同时可是多么的兴奋！

 大蓝钳一只。

用我穿的拖鞋拍照做个对比。

还好虾钩牢牢的钩住。

原本炎热的下午忽然下雨了，还想说雨不是很大继续的钓下去，可是一直打雷，还是早点回家比较好！毕竟今天也过足瘾了。

二月四号的收获。

晚上把大家伙带去咖啡店，料理成大头虾米粉，和朋友一起享受。很不错吃一下。

大头虾炒米粉。

吃好晚餐，朋友们都回家了。看看时间还早，不想回到家躺下时脑袋想太多，在回家的当儿在桥停下，看到很多的钓鱼发烧友在桥上钓鱼。很庆幸的碰到一位很聊得来的钓友，车车大炮了解钓况，发现原来这里如果知道预算潮水，可以有很好的收获，常见的是高价值的鰵（Tirusan），Paloh，顺壳（Ketutu），Ikan Bulu, 淡水大头虾等等。

许多发烧友在桥上钓着鱼。

钓友钓获的IkanPaloh和顺壳。 

第二天，又来到这里，继续寻找美人虾。出发到半路，摩多`出现问题，还得麻烦家人送工具来维修，耽误了很多时间，尽量不让心情被影响。今天的天气非常炎热，我带了五组虾竿和一组鱼竿。第一只上钓的白须公被我起肉当钓饵。

派上战场的武器。

钓了许久，第三只美人虾比较有份量。因为风很大，所以没法观察到钓竿的动向，很多次都被美人虾把虾钩拉进障碍物或卡钓，心痛！难道美人虾今天不愿见到被太阳晒到脸红红的我吗？：（

比较像样的美人虾，让我感到安慰。

来搅局的小海泥鳅，拍了照就放生了，等到尽量十足再较量吧！

这里有人曾经钓上八公斤的鳘鱼（Tirusan），我钓过不少一公斤多的。把一只钓到较小的大头虾当鱼饵，希望得到大鳘鱼的垂青。不过今天大鳘还是不露面。不打紧，下次再跟它相约。

期待大鳘上钩的鱼饵。

今天的运气不是很好，摩多出故障，走很多次的美人虾，还要给我断竿的打击。还是提早回家比较好。收着东西，遇到马来朋友，之前一起钓鱼的，人家一下钓就钓到三牙（Gelama）。他向我展示小河钓到的大头虾，还蛮大的。

断了的竿，望着它，有点难过。

决定在回家的途中找生鱼的麻烦。漂亮的稻田和排水沟是一流的生鱼钓点，可惜今天都是小生鱼来捧场，而且是小到surecatch 5.5cm的小青蛙都咬不上！清澈的水让我看到两只小生鱼穷追着青蛙。虽然钓不到，但看到也很满足了，毕竟钓到也是放生。可能月圆的时候生鱼晚上已经出来捕食吃饱了，还是太靠近路边导致大生鱼对任何的声音都很敏感？？

漂亮的排水沟。

第二天，把钓到的美人虾拿来料理，爆香红葱，蒜米，姜之后，放入美人虾，加点家制的红酒和水，再打个蛋，料理出来的美人虾还不错哦！无需多材料，单凭美人虾的鲜味就很好吃了！

 

 简单的料理，鲜甜的味道。 

快乐的时光总是过得特别的快！期待下一次老地方相约美人虾和大鳘哦！

（PS：新年就这样过去了，还真的很快。）

久违的活动，钓虾抓螃蟹！

钓大头虾,在我还在念FormSix时几乎是每天放学后的活动。那时靠近板厂有个小码头，盖有凉亭和灯，所以就算是大热天我依旧准时报道，掉到天黑还是继续。可见那时钓虾是多么的疯狂，即使整天没钓到也没关系。

2012年的农历新年，请了假提早回家过年，回到这个曾经带来很多回忆的地方。已经有两三年没到这地方了吧！自从听说凉亭倒塌，板厂关闭之后就没有没去了。还好还有个洋灰码头，趁着傍晚凉爽的时间去钓钓虾。看着钓竿轻轻的摆动，握起钓竿慢慢的提起，熟悉的后退拉力传到手中！虽说不很大只，但还是过瘾。钓虾的同时享受黄昏的景色，不知不觉就到了回家的时间。三人的战绩：我三只，大雄一只，二哥一只。

 有美丽的黄昏景色加上大头虾，棒！

 当天傍晚的收获。

话说四兄弟当中都喜欢钓鱼，但说到抓螃蟹可是大哥的专利。 就在除夕前一天，我俩带了二十多个笼子去抓螃蟹咯！ 饵是鲨鱼肉，因为鲨鱼肉较结实，可耐在水泡上两天，因为是隔一晚才去收笼子。因为太久没到目的地，必须花时间开路，抵达时已经很累了。稍微休息一下就去布阵，同时也找螺的麻烦。可能很久没有人来到此地，我俩收集到不少螺。接近傍晚，是时候回家了！收起一部分的笼子看看有没有螃蟹。刚收几个笼子都还没有收获，还好到要收的最后几个没令我俩失望。

 当天的收获，过得去。

 收集到的螺，Cerithidea obtusa。好吃哦！

虽说回到家很累，全身都是烂泥，但是那种满足感确实很不错哦！而且还有新鲜的河产吃呢！何乐而不为？？？