Strange Feeling

Try to use my poor English to express my feeling. When we still study at school, we feel that working is better, because we can earn money. Now, i have been working for more than 1 year. What i felt is how good if i can go back to school again!

My life after graduate? Before went back to hometown, i attend an interview for QC executive at Magna Foremost. Everything work out well then i have been offered the position. I felt happy cos this is my first interview for work yet i can get it! Who know last day of May 2010, i received a call from HR telling me that they recommended me to other company, which in other words they reject me. Imagine what is my feeling that time, been rejected without any reason! I went back to hometown, saw an advertisement at newspaper regarding vacancies at Samling Housing products situated at Kuala Baram, Miri. I apply for the interview and after few period i receive a call to attend the interview. Everything go smooth, only wait for the confirmation from general manager to decide whether to hire me or not. Before attend the interview i received call from Shin Yang inform me about interview session also! Then after the interview at Samling, i received call from Forestry Department asking me to attend interview also! What a day! Because only little chance to get the government job, i work at Samling while waiting for the result. Working as production executive. the name executive sound very good, but the truth is you have to work like horse! 12 hours working with the salary scale same with those working at office for 8 hours. I decide to resign not only because of the salary scale, but my opinion even i keep staying here i won't have good future!

Half year working with Samling, tired both physical and mental. Despaired waiting for the Forest department to revive the recruitment list, in the other word losing hope on it, i went to apply KPLI. Manage to pass M-test and went to interview. After the interview session, directly i submit the resign letter to HR. Guess what, i manage to get the offer to study KPLI to become a teacher! With hope i go to Samarahan and start my life to become a primary school English teacher. I thought i will ending become a teacher. When i still study university, i told myself teacher is my last choice for my career and yet i am! I thought! Two months at IPTAR really teach me to become a teacher, and i was happy cos there i learn to become a leader. I become the class monitor, which give me plenty chances to deal with lecturers, in the same time make me very headache dealing with lecturers and even my own course mates! Suddenly a big change appear in my life again! During one week holiday at March2011, i went back to hometown and received a letter from Forest Department inform me that i have recruited as a Executive Forester! The first feeling in my heart: God, why this letter appear now? Why i have to struggle to make a decision? After deep consideration, deeply from my heart i praise to God, thank you so much for giving me a second chance to choose what i really want to be! Teacher make me felt responsible to teach a new generation, but doing something related to forestry is my interest, yet related to what i have been studied!  

Now, i have been serve Forest Department for 4 months, due to some reason, i'm not so happy here because working under a bad environment, poor leadership as a HOD, how could you call yourself a HOD if you didn't act like a good leader? Maybe you have plenty knowledge but you didn't know how to apply it! Or you really poor to be socialize with your staff. Now i just hope i can change to other division. Or if i keep staying here i will be demotivated. Hoping to voice up my opinion to chance my working environment. I'm sure if i been allocated under the division that i prefer to start, sure i give double efforts! Now because of the matter of timing, i have to be patient, be wise to voice up and to change my working environment.

This is what happened on me in one year time. Now, what i felt was a bit lonely. Why i say so? Less friends around me. Only few staffs are almost the same age with me at office but we have different thinking. I prefer stick together with my old buddy, those who become my class mates, course mates before! I understand that people grow up to be more mature and independent, i was acting like a tough guy but deep in my heart i still hoping i have some good friends around. My fate? not sure when will the right one appear, and i will wait patiently!

Didn't went to church for two to three months already! Felt guilty to myself! Always give excuse to myself! God, please lead me!  

2011年的七月。

不经不觉，已经到了七月的尾声。这个月有十九天外站工作，回到来托了好几天结果昨天一次过发了几个有关工作的帖子。心里早有数，这次回来办公室一定有事情发生。结果不出我所料。整理好我的claim form，星期一放工前交给我的上司。怎么知道第二天一大早就被退回来，忽然间说要我交报告，看了报告才肯帮我签！拜托，为何之前我出门前不交代说要报告呢？这样的话我可以早早就做了！我忍！然后要请上回拜六上班的假期，又给我一大堆的借口，不愿帮我签！哇佬！有没有搞错！还有，原本是我出外的工作被你的命令之下别人拿去做！不是我不甘愿让别人去，而是每个人都有本身的岗位，为何要扰乱原本的构造呢？如果改变是为了好，我一定赞成，但很明显是针对我! 真是自找麻烦啊！我打从内心的对你的领导能力感到失望！前几天找了行政上司让他了解我的情况，他好像要洗我的脑，叫我继续在那里学习。听完他唠叨，才对我说若要换小组的话必须写信给总裁。可惜下个月就是禁食月，心情一定比较不好，要谈这些课题不是很适合。还得等对的时机去见总裁。感觉这次我很固执，因为我真的不想这么快呆在这部门，若没经验肯定被人利用，结果还得吃死猫。真的希望可以先在有关森林管理的小组之下开始学习。这两天和同事们都聊起对我上头的不满，原来上头的办事能力很多人都以摇头带过！而且听说升职还被人拖延着。这么说来现在她的等级跟我一样吗！

感恩这个月里有很多天的外出，除了喜欢大自然的环境，也帮我凑到一些汽车头款。就看看把八月会有怎么样的促销为我带来一些惊喜。

美里Sungai Seputi钓虾记。

不知不觉已经在在古晋工作了半年，刚好公干外出来到了美里，也就是之前工作的地方。难得的是可以和叔叔一同去钓虾，几好！钓游前一天下了大雨，水有点冷，加上引擎问题，要不然往河口外钓况会比较好。

引擎有点小问题，我和叔叔只好用浆划小舟找地点下钓。

先来张自恋照。

叔叔专心钓虾的情况。

终于，重温旧梦。这只有多大？看看以下的对比。

我的拖鞋。

我的Nokia X6。

当天的收获。叔叔说如果往河口钓成绩会更理想。

 

好久没把APEK捧在手里的感觉了！

期待下一次和叔叔一同去钓虾的钓游！

Loagan Bunut & Bukit Lambir National Park外站工作。

紧接着Niah National Park之后来到了Loagan Bunut 和 Bukit Lambir National Park。要到达Loagan Bunut National Park 必须经过一段大概两小时的泥路。原本打算在那里钓鱼的我打消了念头，因为时间的关系，那时水位很低，应该钓起鱼来还不错。可惜只能眼看手不动咯！由于这里的工作量不多，我们只逗留了一个晚上就去最后一站，Bukit Lambir National Park. 可惜时间不允许我们四处走走，也没拍到那里的瀑布，只能等下一次咯！

早晨阳光初现，感觉很舒服。

看到那占了很大面积的湖吗？水位很低。

早上拍到的昆虫。

拍张照留念。

高初的风景。

知道这是什么吗？福州话：bok bok ji。

它的花看起来很漂亮。

未成熟的果子

对比，熟的和未熟的果子。

熟透的果实天天酸酸的！小时候很常采来吃。

果实很冷，吃了容易咳嗽，每次被妈妈教训！哈哈

Niah National Park外站工作

七月九号，继续我的外站工作来到了Niah National Park. 第一次来到Batu Niah，那里美丽的山景让我大开眼界。这里有许多工作必须要做，努力在最短的时间赶完，争取时间要去走走。趁着傍晚时间在附近的小河钓虾。为了买虾钩不知问了多少间的店面才找到。有兴趣者可以在Batu Niah 开一间钓具专卖店，相信会有一定的销售量。河底有许多的障碍物，虾采饵的动作很斯文，要仔细观察才能钓到虾。由于我的钓竿是8-16磅的抛投竿，用来钓虾很欠佳。缺乏弹性的竿好几次成功被虾脱钩远离我而去。工作做完后，和同事们一同去走尼亚石洞。许久没有好好运动的我成功走到最后一站，Painted Cave。

成功钓到的大头虾。

就快到最尾了！先来张！

已经到达Painted Cave. 

所谓的壁画已经模糊不清。

回到古代住在山洞里的日子。

拍了照，把它移到一旁，要不就会被人踩到！。 

漂亮的景色。

马陆。

如果有一天，我的大肚腩....

进入石洞的篱笆门。

感觉很不错，来张照。

途中遇到的变色龙，嘴里好像含着什么。

石洞里的景色。

想象一下以前就住在这里。

在墙上的木架是用来采购燕窝的工具。

好看吗？

要克服许多的楼梯才可到Painted Cave。 

肚腩好像遍了一些。

光线的效果。

走在黑暗里。

石洞壁上的燕窝，可惜不够高！

Gan Kira

这里有许多大树，伐木商看到一定口水直流！

有机会再来参观这里的两个地点，据说是专门保护燕子的地点。

Similajau National Park 外站工作。

七月五号乘搭马行从古晋飞往民杜鲁，到Similajau National Park 处理一些登记及转交财务，工作的当儿又可以放松心情，真好。为了可以在工作时间也可以悠闲，快快把手头上的工作做好。这里新建筑物还过得去，只是还是有被偷工减料的地方。工作赶完了，四处去走走。时间上的关系，不能去黄金沙滩，只是到附近走走。发现Chalet地下的沙地有很多凹的洞，正是小时候常常玩的东西。尝试在网上找它的资料，这里种了很多Tongkat Ali，树上结了很多红色的果实。

 有许多洞头正等着蚂蚁闯关。

若蚂蚁跌进洞里面，就会被这生物当甜点咯！尝试找它的学名却没头绪。

哪位高人可否指点一下？

Tongkat Ali 的果实。

黄昏的景色。

夕阳无限好。

发现猴子很喜欢这果实。

壮观的Tongkat Ali。

无所事事，拍个幼小的菠萝蜜。

晚间的钓鱼活动，体型不错的三牙。

 不久的收获，变成第二天的午菜了！