Try to use my poor English to express my feeling. When we still study at school, we feel that working is better, because we can earn money. Now, i have been working for more than 1 year. What i felt is how good if i can go back to school again!
My life after graduate? Before went back to hometown, i attend an interview for QC executive at Magna Foremost. Everything work out well then i have been offered the position. I felt happy cos this is my first interview for work yet i can get it! Who know last day of May 2010, i received a call from HR telling me that they recommended me to other company, which in other words they reject me. Imagine what is my feeling that time, been rejected without any reason! I went back to hometown, saw an advertisement at newspaper regarding vacancies at Samling Housing products situated at Kuala Baram, Miri. I apply for the interview and after few period i receive a call to attend the interview. Everything go smooth, only wait for the confirmation from general manager to decide whether to hire me or not. Before attend the interview i received call from Shin Yang inform me about interview session also! Then after the interview at Samling, i received call from Forestry Department asking me to attend interview also! What a day! Because only little chance to get the government job, i work at Samling while waiting for the result. Working as production executive. the name executive sound very good, but the truth is you have to work like horse! 12 hours working with the salary scale same with those working at office for 8 hours. I decide to resign not only because of the salary scale, but my opinion even i keep staying here i won't have good future!
Half year working with Samling, tired both physical and mental. Despaired waiting for the Forest department to revive the recruitment list, in the other word losing hope on it, i went to apply KPLI. Manage to pass M-test and went to interview. After the interview session, directly i submit the resign letter to HR. Guess what, i manage to get the offer to study KPLI to become a teacher! With hope i go to Samarahan and start my life to become a primary school English teacher. I thought i will ending become a teacher. When i still study university, i told myself teacher is my last choice for my career and yet i am! I thought! Two months at IPTAR really teach me to become a teacher, and i was happy cos there i learn to become a leader. I become the class monitor, which give me plenty chances to deal with lecturers, in the same time make me very headache dealing with lecturers and even my own course mates! Suddenly a big change appear in my life again! During one week holiday at March2011, i went back to hometown and received a letter from Forest Department inform me that i have recruited as a Executive Forester! The first feeling in my heart: God, why this letter appear now? Why i have to struggle to make a decision? After deep consideration, deeply from my heart i praise to God, thank you so much for giving me a second chance to choose what i really want to be! Teacher make me felt responsible to teach a new generation, but doing something related to forestry is my interest, yet related to what i have been studied!
Now, i have been serve Forest Department for 4 months, due to some reason, i'm not so happy here because working under a bad environment, poor leadership as a HOD, how could you call yourself a HOD if you didn't act like a good leader? Maybe you have plenty knowledge but you didn't know how to apply it! Or you really poor to be socialize with your staff. Now i just hope i can change to other division. Or if i keep staying here i will be demotivated. Hoping to voice up my opinion to chance my working environment. I'm sure if i been allocated under the division that i prefer to start, sure i give double efforts! Now because of the matter of timing, i have to be patient, be wise to voice up and to change my working environment.
This is what happened on me in one year time. Now, what i felt was a bit lonely. Why i say so? Less friends around me. Only few staffs are almost the same age with me at office but we have different thinking. I prefer stick together with my old buddy, those who become my class mates, course mates before! I understand that people grow up to be more mature and independent, i was acting like a tough guy but deep in my heart i still hoping i have some good friends around. My fate? not sure when will the right one appear, and i will wait patiently!
Didn't went to church for two to three months already! Felt guilty to myself! Always give excuse to myself! God, please lead me!
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